anons i realized none of my "friends" care about me
they say they're here for me but it's not easy for me to just reach out and talk about my feelings with anyone,so said they shouldn't bother and that i didn't want to annoy them and they completely forgot about me

its not like i wanted them to keep subjecting themselves to me but damn its been over a week and no one has even sent me a txt...

the only friend who messaged me these weeks used to be my best friend until she moved towns. she sent me a message saying that she missed me and wanting to know my address so i eagerly replied telling her i missed her too and asked why she wanted my address for (thinking that maybe it was a letter or something) but she just wanted to put me on her dads (he's a politician) mailing list. she didn't even answer me when i asked her when she was free

i belive im the problem im so boring and sad and ridic no one cares and they shouldn't i wish i could stop existing and spare people of my presence
sorry for the rant here's the only place i feel comfortable sharing this